Wednesday, December 31, 2008 @10:07 PM
987 Top 100 Countdown!1. Apologize – One Republic ft. Timbaland
2. Low – Flo Rida
3. Take A Bow - Rihanna
4. Stronger – Kanye West
5. With You – Chris Brown
6. 4 Minutes – Madonna ft. Justin Timberlake & Timbaland
7. Always Be My Baby – David Cook
8. Check Yes Juliet – We The Kings
9. Crush – David Archuleta
10. Fall For You – Secondhand Serenade
11. Bleeding Love – Leona Lewis
12. That’s Not My Name – The Ting Tings
13. No One – Alicia Keys
14. Easy – Paula DeAnda ft. Bow Wow
15. Nine In The Afternoon – Panic At The Disco
16. Touch My Body – Mariah Carey
17. Built To Last – Melee
18. I’m Yours – Jason Mraz
19. When You Look Me In The Eyes – Jonas Brothers
20. Stop And Stare – One Republic
21. Shake It – Metro Station
22. See You Again – Miley Cyrus
23. Teardrops On My Guitar – Taylor Swift
24. Disturbia - Rihanna
25. Viva La Vida - Coldplay
26. Burning Up – Jonas Brothers
27. The Man Who Can’t Be Moved – The Script
28. Lucky – Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat
29. Better In Time – Leona Lewis
30. Teenage Love Affair – Alicia Keys
31. Pictures Of You – The Last Goodnight
32. Don’t Stop The Music - Rihanna
33. 7 Things – Miley Cyrus
34. Hate That I Love You – Rihanna ft. Ne-Yo
35. When I Grow Up – Pussycat Dolls
36. Kiss Kiss – Chris Brown ft. T-Pain
37. Hero/Heroine – Boys Like Girls
38. Potential Breakup Song – Aly & AJ
39. When I’m Gone – Simple Plan
40. Love In This Club – Usher ft. Young Jeezy
41. Empty – The Click Five
42. Misery Business – Paramore
43. Gimme More – Britney Spears
44. Forever – Chris Brown
45. Handlebars - Flobots
46. Happy Birthday – The Click Five
47. One Step At A Time – Jordin Sparks
48. Superstar – Lupe Fiasco ft. Matthew Santos
49. No Air – Jordin Sparks & Chris Brown
50. Damaged – Danity KaneI thought there was something wrong too. But unfortunately, this is what it is. Cheers!
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@5:10 PM
987 Top 100 Countdown!51. Shadow Of The Day – Linkin Park
52. I Got It From My Mama – will.i.am
53. Crushcrushcrush - Paramore
54. Beat It – Fall Out Boy ft. John Mayer
55. Love Song – Sara Bareilles
56. Bubbly – Colbie Caillat
57. Whoa Oh! (Me vs. Everyone) – Forever The Sickest Kids
58. The Best Damn Thing – Avril Lavigne
59. How I Could Just Kill A Man – Charlotte Sometimes
60. This Is Me – Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas
61. I'll Be Lovin' U Long Time – Mariah Carey ft. T.I.
62. SOS – Jonas Brothers
63. Sweetest Girl (Dollar Bill) – Wyclef Jean ft. Niia, Akon & Lil Wayne
64. Tattoo – Jordin Sparks
65. Thunder – Boys Like Girls
66. American Boy – Estelle ft. Kanye West
67. Heartbreaker – will.i.am ft. Cheryl Cole
68. Pocketful Of Sunshine – Natasha Bedingfield
69. Elevator – Flo Rida ft. Timbaland
70. That’s What You Get – Paramore
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Tuesday, December 30, 2008 @8:34 PM
Stupid economic recessionI was wondering what it would be like if my friends lived in their own houses, and I could visit them whenever I wanted. Vice versa. Pop by, take them by surprise, chill out in front of the tele with a load of snacks, and simply talk the day away. Some people don't have to wonder.It sounds like a mantra, but pretty unbelievable that tomorrow is 2008 and the day after is 2009. The orientation camp doesn't seem like a week away, but far in the future. School's starting, and I'll be dumbstruck when the teachers launch into whatever they've prepared. My brain's turned rusty. As shown when I could barely keep up with the flow of riddles. =P (But that was part of what made me love Sunday) I remember less and less as I grow older. Ironic. Or is it because there are more things than ever?I always see the villian whenever I step out into the living room and Little Nonya is on tele. Talk about coincidence. By the way, the earth is rotating slower. Which means that international clocks have to be turned back by one second. O.oWoke up feeling bleary today. It wasn't raining, like yesterday, but blazing hot instead. Funny weather, considering we're still in December. Off to psl dry run, and my mum drove me to school for the first time. With my dad right beside her, of course. She's improving, but still terrible with directions. I have a feeling she's totally unaware of everything that's outside the car when she isn't driving. Heh. Oh, and we recently added a new member into the family. Lovely little one called vios. Right. Psl dry run, we learned a dance, taught by the ever-cheerful joshua. Maybe it's really time for those lessons, to pick up something, and approach that spotlight dream later. Joking, mostly~ Lunch was amusing to see kt get "freaked out" by pig intestines.Oh and I'm bummed that the muttons aren't going to be on air from 10 to 12 tomorrow night! After the top 100 countdown. They did such a great job on new year's eve last year, I loved it. Maybe soo will take over. Or are they all packing off to siloso beach?! I predict apologize as number one, bleeding love among the top five. Happy advanced 20th birthday, 987fm!I dreamt about SFLS and OIP for the second time. Must really miss you guys very much.Did you actually teach me something about friendship? That it's either all about giving, or receiving only when giving? Or am I imagining too much again?
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Saturday, December 27, 2008 @12:55 AM
Last thursday, last friday, last saturday of the year.Yay for sports, personally, because both Lakers and Liverpool won. Convincingly. Everything clicked, but it felt lame after the third goal.I need to sleep, if it doesn't rain tomorrow, or rather later, I'll have to run. Something which I should be used to.I can't believe he decided to dress himself as santa claus, crash a christmas gathering, kill 9 people and shoot an 8 year old girl in the face. Execution-style. 8 year old girl in the face. Probably ruined her life. On christmas eve too. I don't pretend to understand what went through his mind or the complications in his life previously. Whatever feud he had with his ex-wife or ex-in-laws, this massacre is twisted beyond belief. He might have been a pleasant man, I can't doubt that. But right now, his actions seem to indicate that he's nothing more other than a disgusting, vile, low-life piece of scum. A coward who simply killed himself but brought no justice to anyone. How can it be unfair to pass judgement?
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Thursday, December 25, 2008 @9:30 PM
ChristmasThe Little Nonya creeps me out. It just does. I know it's a great show, "watched by more people compared to the Beijing Olympics", as someone never fails to repeat over and over again.Lunch happened at Changi Airport Terminal 3. Terminal 3 is... attractive, in my opinion, have I said that before? You would've seen it as a shopping centre if not for the screens displaying the arriving and departing flights. Today's probably the second time when I'm at the airport but not for the purpose of leaving the country. I loved it when I was younger, tied in with the subtle awe at being about to go overseas.And I was at this small bookstore, flipping through magazines, peeking at Breaking Dawn. I felt like buying most of the books, only because of their highly interesting cover pages. Then I picked up a real-life account of a woman falsely imprisoned for 20 years, found in possession of drugs she never knew about, when her only intention was to enjoy her innocent holiday. Well, I might have described it badly, but the story sickened me.Bowling. My favourite number with another number in front. The misses, pin here, pin there, were a "harsh reality check". I don't let it show, because it certainly gets annoying! I discovered one thing though, the ball travels straight when you bend down lower before releasing it, but this doesn't guarantee a strike. (For me it never did)Dinner where I felt extremely uncomfortable and didn't have any appetite at all.Homework. Right...
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Monday, December 22, 2008 @10:50 PM
Justin's christmas jokes are hilariously lame.If you don't wish to speak to me, say so. Unless you already took the initiative to "leave me alone". You probably don't know how difficult it is to spend every minute wondering about what goes through your mind, anticipating your reactions, attempting to make you laugh, and reacting the way you want. Never stopped trying though, because this means something. And that something is pretty significant.There are actually times when I'm on a bus feeling dirty and sweaty carrying a huge black sports bag, believe it or not. Obviously, the circumstances don't call for a cheerful mood. Then, two seats next to me are free. And of course, I'm intent on simply preparing to sit down. Well, I don't expect an obnoxious guy to push past me roughly, as if I'm invisible, to snatch the seats away. While he's rejoicing in being able to rest his butt, he doesn't know about the grudge that I'm starting to hold against him. Blessed ignorance.Christmas. It's serene and festive at the same time. Is that possible?I can't believe it's going back to the same situation as it was last time. I thought we moved past it, especially after the experiences over the holidays. I thought we changed, for the better. But nothing is ever for the better, isn't it? We can't revert, we really can't.Love at first sight. That's awfully nice.
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Monday, December 15, 2008 @11:10 PM
Thank you to every single person who made this day special for me simply through your kind wishes! I really appreciate it, nothing extravagant, just pleasant.Although I learnt not to dwell, certain things are such an important part of my life that their presence can't be hidden because I say so. Talent and I might not cross paths, and it's not my place to determine what I deserve, but don't take the fact that I've worked hard away from me. Unfortunately, work rate hardly counts for anything in this world, delivering the right results is what truly matters. I had my chance.I didn't take it.That means it comes back to me ultimately. My own fault.Doesn't it hurt? I've always had doubts, but not this time. Don't say I've not worked hard, not concentrated, not made sacrifices. Because you're so wrong it's not even remotely funny.I haven't made a specific birthday wish. What do I want?You are my life now
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Monday, December 8, 2008 @7:05 PM
1. What's your full name?
Lazy Inconsequential Mope
2. Are you single?
Unfortunately, or rather, fortunately YES
3. What is your favourite number(s)?
24 (My lucky number, according to the fortune cookie)
4.What is/are your favourite colour(s)?
Red
5.Least favourite colour?
Green (Your fault, Swan!)
6. What are you thinking right now?
Of why things couldn't be more meaningful, or is it just me
7. Are you happy with your life right now?
Not exactly, there are 1001 things that could be improved on
8. What are your favourite subjects in school?
Math
9. Do you shop at malls?
Yes, I can't think of anywhere else to shop
10. Where do you wish to be right now?
At OIP
11. What should you be doing now?
Homework or Training (fighting hard to be positive)
12.Do you have a crush on anyone?
It's a "Do", not "Did" question. NO
13.When was the last time you bought a clothing item?
Very recently! The mild shopping spree in California... my jacket =D
14.What was the last thing you drank?
Water. Helps my constant coughing fit. There it is again.
15.Do you hate liars? Do you hate backstabbers?
They only want one thing. To break my heart.
16.Can you make yourself sneeze?
Not talented enough!
17. Do you fall for people easily?
In love? No.
18.What does your last text message read?
A long message that I wouldn't want to trouble you with reading.
19.Are you too forgiving?
I don't hold grudges... hardly. But otherwise, I forgive easily. Though I should not be a pushover D=
20.How many windows are open on your computer?
2
21.Who was your last call from?
Johnson, who asked me to go to the MRT station. If only I were an American.
22.What do you do with most of your time?
Waste it away... =(
23.Will you and your ex get back again?
In most cases, no
24.Do you sleep with the tv on?
Doubt so... too much guilt the next morning over wasted resources
25. Which of your close friends live the closest?
Uhh... I'm not sure.
26.Which item could you not live during the day?
Huh?
27.Would you share a drink with a stranger?
That would be horribly awkward for both parties, no?
28. How was your weekend?
Jumbled... I left LA Saturday morning, but it was Sunday morning here. Time difference.
29. Do you believe ex(s) can be friends?
Why torture yourselves by avoiding each other?
30. The last person you quarreled with?
My mum
31. The way to win your heart?
Love me unconditionally
32. What did you do last night?
Sleeping on the plane, uncomfortable
33. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
I think... no one in the world has the same name as me
34. Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
*Groans* Stop confusing me to tears!
35. One song that is meaningful to you?
Tomorrow, Avril Lavigne
36. Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
Depends whether I'm in a twirling or scooping mood, it's pretty subconscious.
37.Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
No.
38. How long is your hair?
You mean "How short is your hair?"
39. Do you like Batman?
He's passable
40. Who was the last person who told you they love you?
Umm... who? Never?
41. When was the last time you sang out loud?
3 weeks ago in the shower (in Shenzhen)
42. What did you have for breakfast?
Prawn Mee! Haven't had local food for a month.
43. Is your birthday on a holiday?
Omg my birthday. Don't send my heart racing.
44. Can you cook?
If you teach me. Otherwise, I'm utterly hopeless.
45. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
I don't know... In fact I don't know where I got all my singlets from.
46. What was the reason for the last trouble you were in?
For not paying attention
47. Which do you wear more- sweats or jeans?
Definitely jeans
48. When is your birthday?
Soon.
49.Do you swear alot?
Under my breath.
50. What was your first alcoholic drink?
Beer? Tiger Beer?
51. Do you have any regrets?
Yeah, and they continue to make me feel awful
52. Who would you like to see now?
Someone who could truly make me happy
53. Has the cops ever been to your house?
No! I live in a peaceful neighbourhood, thank you very much.
54. Are you a social or antisocial person?
I am both at different times.
55. Who are your best friends? Are you still friends with them?
They know who they are. They wouldn't be my best friends if I weren't friends with them, right?
56. Ever been in love?
No. What's that? Looking forward to it.
57. Ever had braces?
Never needed them. =)
58. What do you wear to bed?
Red and white pajamas
59. Who was the last person who disappointed you?
Myself
60. Do you trust people?
I try, but I can get suspicious, which I hate
61. Who was the first person you talked to today?
My mum
62. Who was the first person who texted you today?
Wen Zheng
63. What was the first thing you did today?
Wake up
64. 10 people to tag
Anyone!
Dread
Unwell
Piercing
HurtYou chose us, then dumped a group who didn't deserve it
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@4:48 PM
Right now, I still admire Rebecca Addlington (after a newspaper article), I'm still backing Diana Vickers (after weekly 4 minute videos), and I still envy Nick and Starr's unbreakable bond.I haven't forgotten that today's grandma's birthday, even though it's been 30 months since she left. No one has yet to know the guilt, regret and longing that simmers within me whenever I think of her, until now.The past month might not be the most amazing experience in my life, but it has been more than fulfilling, enriching, not beautiful, but something I would savour forever. It should have had been a whirlwind, and I'm surprised I didn't find it difficult to adapt to wherever I was. Having stared at different people, I convinced myself of one thing. I'm not even 15, to say that I have a long road ahead of me is an understatement. I have time, years (although they won't wait for me) to do things that I relish, to feel like I've never felt before but to be content at the same time, to be proud of who I am. Will I be able to do it though? Nevertheless, a huge doubt just has to cloud relentlessly over my mind.Honestly, I missed my friends and 初二一班 to an extent that once or twice, they frighteningly appeared in my dreams. The America that I went to, it felt like I barely saw anyone for 6 days. Barren mountains over barren contours. That was how much travelling we did. Until Disneyland, which was overcrowded with people. How ironic!There was this thing I did on the bus... while staring out of the window into the pitch black environment, to try to listen to a complete song and its lyrics, not letting any other thought enter my mind. I never succeeded. Within 10 seconds, the walls around my mind would gradually crumble and allow jumbled, ugly thoughts to hit me. That's how weak my resolve is.To be able to watch the sun rise over the Grand Canyon was, rightfully, a wonder. We missed the sunset, but the Grand Canyon itself is breathtaking. "An immovable object can be majestic in every sense of the word" I wanted to stand there motionless, in the freezing cold that was turning my nose and ears numb, and simply feel blessed for witnessing such a sight. So I tried to imprint that picture in my mind. Not forgetting the bonus. To think I was in the coldest place -minus 6 degrees- I had ever been in my life... while the tour guide stripped like it was nobody's business. And stayed topless too.Stepping into Las Vegas, it didn't reach my all-too-high expectations. Flashy, but not flashy enough. Probably because I'm not 21 and can't totally immerse myself into this place "that never sleeps". Somehow, it's not enough just to be surrounded by heavily decorated jackpot machines and gaming tables in a casino. The luxurious hotels are another matter. Calling them high-class barely touches the truth. There was this hotel, Caesars Palace, that had 150 lavish, branded shops. Imagine the experience... and that's not the best yet.I am who I am, different from who I was a few years back, and different from who I will be in a few years. If there's anything I learnt, it's that you will forever be clinging at straws if you never stop thinking that talent evades you and desire is not enough.I'm willing to bet that you would never ever want to be in my shoes, because your shoes have too many memories that you can't leave behind for anything in the world.
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