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Sunday, February 3, 2008 @8:59 PM

Terrorism feeding terrorism O.O

Sri Lanka+Tamil Tigers: Evolution of the ethnic war

That's the case study for social studies.
I like case studies because there's a context placed to it which makes everything more interesting.
And it's an eye-opener.
In my 14 years of existence, i've never realised sri lanka was/is in civil war plus i've known nothing about sinhalese.
Narrow? my perspective of the world and beyond.

Finally liverpool won. It's taken them such and such and such a long time. They simply have must need to continue winning now. Plus man utd became the luckiest club alive yesterday. Equalising with the last kick of the game. But hey, i guess this is what it means when they say "This is the stuff champions are made of."

Two more days of school. Survived past one month, two days won't be that difficult. Wrong. It will be that tough. Everyday is a challenge. O.o Maybe it will rain for the entire day tomorrow. That could be good. Or bad. After that, it's cny. The second year of spending cny without my grandma. It's somewhat taken some of the spark out of cny since she passed away. For starters, no more reunion dinners at her house. The first day of cny won't be the same, though we'll still be going to her house with all the relatives there, it's as if the bubble of light that's always been there has gone missing. That's how i felt last year. No more image of her bustling around, taking care of all of us while we spend some of the first day of chinese new year together. I don't know why i'm thinking about this. Wonder how she's doing.
My cny won't be as festive and as great as other people's but it's just me who doesn't appreciate cny as much as i should be. I'm guilty of that.

I keep forgetting to say that the skin on my fingers are flaking away. dry. dried. dried up.

The squash camp during the march holidays is only for the team players. Meaning, i don't have to go. Or rather, i'm not included. I was. looking forward to it. And well, now we're not needed? That's a really crushing feeling. They'll be thinking we need a deserved break and maybe i should be satisfied? Or the team players are going through intensive work for nationals and we'll just be
in the way?
a hindrance?

But as usual, when i'm thinking like i'm thinking in the above paragraph, i feel like my thoughts are childish and self-centered. It always happens.
think. stop. scold myself because i shldn't be thinking this way. because i'm wrong. it's like i'm controlling what i shld be thinking. which is crazy.
am i trying to be perfect? =(

this post has just been me rambling along like a mad cow with no particular aim. shall return to watching the conflict in sri lanka. holidays please. more of them.

NO LYRICS

we've drifted
and i haven't made an effort
i'm a total bitch for neglecting us
for that i apologise
but what use will sorry be
it's my fault
i promise to try my best
to close the widening gap between us
it would be awful
if we were to be reduced to almost strangers
and i don't want that
i'm sorry

♥ you and i both loved