What Yee Shing Means |
 You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. |
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I just realised my name is spelled as Poh Lee Shing by those hollandse club people. My name is really that strange and difficult to spell correctly hur! My match is this thursday at 6.15. I don't think i have any idea how to get there. Hope i play well and win?
Did i just say that i wanna do well for maths cct today in my previous post? Well i guess i can't keep my promises. A faker. Because i completely screwed it up. Imagine... it's only a test with 2 pages, on one darned sheet of paper, and i'm actually that incompetent to be unable to do the darned questions. I will just die for the rest of the year then. This cct is supposed to help us ISN'T IT (like what mr chua always says) and i just CAN'T take this chance to do well. "Why? What happened?" I don't know at all okay, i don't know. Maybe because i panicked. Maybe because i didn't keep my composure. Maybe because i'm just not proficient enough at maths. Maybe it's one of the worst tests i've taken, because I realise that I shouldn't have been that dumb to not know how to do all the questions. Maybe I didn't study hard enough, but then what to call all the time spent on doing the supplementary worksheets, paying attention in class, practising sums in tuition? Meaning i just can't even remember what i did for one day and apply it to the darned test.
In any case, my results are dropping. It's like riding a bicycle down a steep slope, just not that exhilarating. Fine, accuse me of not concentrating and not studying hard enough. I slack too much. If i have to study any harder, it might as well be 24/7.
I want to have a resolution to do well in term 2 but there's no point. Since i can never keep to what i promise myself. Not just academically. What happened to my facebook resolution to live instead of exist?
After the test, I wanted to concentrate all my pent-up frustration, anger and despair on the run at macritchie. But like i always do awhile later after any test, i try to deceive and lie to myself that i didn't do too badly. Today, i kina succeeded in lying to myself, then failed because i discovered i did another question wrongly. The 6km run was okay. Huffed and puffed throughout and i so wanted it to just clear my mind off any bad stuff. I guess it didn't really work though. When i finished running, it all felt so surreal again. It didn't feel like i've ran at all. Like going back in time. I've been feeling it... stuff just seems so unreal. At least the sprinting managed to make me much more tired that i didn't really have the energy to think much.
Went home with felix on 156. Guess who we saw? The one and only (or more?) BG aka weird person who lives in KFC checking out, particularly, people from my school. As usual, he was craning his neck throughout the bus journey to stare at felix and me while smiling so widely. Are we that attractive? No wait. I'm not. Is felix that irresistable (to BG)? Haha we were laughing at him alot on the bus and i think he knew. Poke fun at him. Haha. Or have a staring competition with him. He can't last long anyway. Easily out-stared.
I should feel ashamed for thinking of complaining about my life because the sec 2s are more stressed than me now. Oh wait gosh i haven't done any hw/studying yet. I don't want to fall any further.
Can't trust me
Wish could write as nice a paragraph as josiah('s)
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Hmm I have no idea why i put that song over there. All the clips of mariah carey's "Touch My Body" on imeem are 30 seconds long. Gahh! If not i would have used it since it sounds great.
My uncle's mother just passed away. It's kind of difficult to believe? Just saw her on the first day of chinese new year, although unconscious. I can't imagine having the amount of courage and fighting spirit to continue living in an unconscious state for... 3 years? I don't know. It's just so surreal? I don't know. I think she played a part in taking care of me when i was really young.
Anyway, maths test tomorrow which i wanna do well. Please! It's better to forget all about last week. At least it's over. And bio on tuesday where apparently we're so far behind I seriously doubt we have even 50% of the knowledge needed to take the test? Like wad-eva! It's not really the teacher's fault. I guess!
Oh and i just can't understand why i slack so much. Where's the good attitude hur! Macritchie run tomorrow. I must run out a good timing if not i'll be letting myself down. Already I've beaten myself up for being lazy and not going for run on saturday morning. No more excuses! No more complaints. Just to myself.
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BIG YAY-YAY
Bought leona lewis' album today! The CD is out the CD is out! I got spirit on valentine's day! How appropriate! Ultimate! =) Darn the lame critics/review-er who only gave the album 3 stars. La-la-la.
I won't mention anything about work since i've blabbered SO much about it. =P Today... went to HM Tea. Well it wasn't exactly the headmaster who turned up but the deputy headmistress. The food was nice-ee. Haha. And there were tons of leftovers! It was quite okay... I listened attentively to what was being said. Muaharx! And the issues talked about were okay... like merger and stuff. The idea of RI, RGS and RJC merging. Hmm... One thing was that everything seemed to be so slippery! Before the whole thing started, weixuan managed to use his amazing skills to attempt to catch my plate when he knocked it over, but one chicken drumstick still dropped onto the floor. LoL i used a tissue paper to wrap it up (wanted to throw it away obviously) then weixuan said it looked like i was da-bao-ing food away. And i dropped my fork too! Clumzy =P Haha gosh i'm talking about irrelavant stuff.
Tomorrow... what's on tomorrow? Oh yeah grandma's birthday. Big dinner... LAO YU SHENG, shark's fin and all. And it's the weekendd!
weekend weekend
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I want to play FIFA 08 but i'm controlling myself and not playing because of work. Yes the infamous four letter or eight letter words.
H-O-M-E-W-O-R-K
T-E-S-T
E-X-A-M
P-R-O-J-E-C-T-S
Can't help but feel really sian. Wish school didn't start tomorrow. Digging a hole and burying myself in it sounds like a very good idea. I don't want to remember what else there is to do. Just let me sleep, sleep, sleep. =)
On the bright side (yes there's a bright side =D) it's cny period. On the brighter side, bleeding love stays at number ONE on 987 top 20 for a second consecutive week. I voted three times. Yay. That's the only nice thing i can think of...
I desperately wish for new songs that are really great.
Please
Please
Please
Oh yeah and for liverpool to whack chelsea
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Happy birthday cristiano ronaldo! (one of the best players in the league now along with adebayor) Wow 5 Feb. I appreciate his really good soccer talents and skills, so i'm wishing him happy birthday. =P Unlike carlos tevez, another man utd player, it's his birthday, but he's not as good as cristiano ronaldo, so too bad. Muahaha.
Bleeding love has a new music video. It's the official US mv. So now, bleeding love has two worldwide renowned music videos. That's called unique. =) Special.
I really want to do my work now but i'm having a headache and feeling unusually warm all over. Basically, quite unwell. Gahh it was getting better just now. Sick and tired. Today, i was in a pretty... unhappy mood. Probably because at the start of the day in the morning, I felt sleepy. Sleppy > Cranky. Then no one wanted to represent the class and attend HM Tea so everyone came up with crappy, fake excuses to get out of it. Which was really pissing and maybe that's why i had a charcoal-ed look on my face? In the end, wx and i were chosen to go. Or rather, one of the only choices. Because we don't have "track n field heats". On the negative side of things, next week i'll be having training on monday, tuesday, wednesday and friday training sec 1s and now thursday HM Tea? I'll be totally drained out and it's the period of all the tests and i'll probably not have time to study or even rest and i'll just faint. On the positive side of things, i'm unknowingly making my sec 3 year a significant, meaningful one instead of sec 1 and 2 when i was probably loitering around lifelessly, maybe? I'm already making a good start, with attending HM Tea and 400m track. Or not.
After that was bio. Mr Law is really an interesting and nice teacher. And unbelievably for chinese, we got to watch i not stupid 2 for the whole period. Gosh. For english, we went through comprehension. My stomach was growling as usual before recess. After recess was maths. Two marks gone because i didn't label properly. Gosh. Coordinate geometry is really tedious. Bleah. Assembly was a LIVELY class interaction. Derek addressed many many class issues. Haha. Anyone who uses vulgarities or makes obscene gestures and innuendos have to pay $1 to the class fund. For inter-class soccer, the league format makes it much more interesting.
Lezneh has a serious attitude problem.
Lastly, RE. It was ghastly. Apparently our first three choices wouldn't be accepted because of mass appeal. Acres, SPCA, Macpherson. And there flew away our hopes of doing an animal-related project which we really wanted. Argh. Plus the teacher (anonymous) saw that we didn't have any ideas for such Acres and SPCA projects, just waiting for instructions, so i think she thought we didn't really deserve to do that area of research. So her impression of us just zoomed down right into the ground at that moment. I didn't like it (no i didn't) when she said "Maybe your sec 2 RE was relaxed". Well, our sec 2 RE wasn't relaxed okay. At least we didn't research on why people are late for school. Fine. I suggested that we try something new and we chose a project that was interesting but extremely demanding. When we told her our decision, she just looked shocked and it was obvious she had 0% confidence in us. Like "Uhhh... them? They can do it?" Darned discouraging. The teachers desribed to us our project, "bringing us through an exciting learning experience" and okay it seems TOUGH x 100. It's like. If we fail, we die. If we don't work hard, we die. If we don't show 120% commitment, we die. If we aren't creative and think of new ideas, we die. If we're lacking and lousy, we die. If we're just plain not good enough. Maybe i'm exaggerating, but hey. Out of the whole school, we're the "only brave souls willing to take on this challenge".
Okay i know i'm darned negative and that's a lousy attitude of mine but i'm looking on the bright side. I'm going to try my best. And the significance of that means alot.
So i strongly believe that tomorrow will be the last day i will have fun for a very very very long time. Prepare to work, tire, struggle and faint myself out. With all the tests coming after CNY, i'll just watch and see how i'm going to survive. I bought a new racket. Like finally! Haha. Because the bumper's coming off in my old racket (which served me well for an amazing 2 years and more), the string eventually came out. So i'm just using it as a spare after it's re-strung for me by coach. I'm slowly having more confidence while playing squash, using my brains, improving.
One Step At A Time
Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away
Can I forget about the good times that we've been through
Would I let you walk away?
But even if I made a vow
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie
*Edit
YEAH SOME OF MY POST DISAPPEARED AND I HAD TO RE-TYPE CERTAIN PARTS. SIGH. while someone has done quite alot of work harh.
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Oh my so weird! I just watched a video in dutch language which i didn't understand a single word at all but i still continued watching it until the end. The video was about a contestant called nikki singing in dutch idol. Haha. It seems like she's a really great singer. Because... her voice is powerful? Because... she got a huge applause, much cheering, standing ovations, from the crowd and judges? Because... the video is one of the most watched ones. XD So nikki must be pro. But heh everything was in dutch, the song, the judges' comments, i need a translator! I wanna know what she sang and what they said! Then oh my sunny day guess what? I came across another video where nikki sang BLEEDING LOVE during one of the rounds of dutch idol. Gosh. She got abit of the words wrong but she sang it quite well. Standing ovations from judges again. But i still believe leona sings bleeding love da bestzz! That's how biased i am. XD
Chasing pavements - Adele
About You Now - Sugababes
Lovestory - Katharine McPhee
I got cramp during PT training this afternoon. X( It's my first time getting cramp in my 14 years of existance... i think? And it happened in a really unexpected way. My legs felt okay, no ache at all, and only after we completed the run and sprints, while doing the cooling down jog, while sprinting 100m, halfway, suddenly the back muscle of my right leg squeezed/clammed/closed up, and i hopped like a rabbit. I bet my sentence doesn't make sense. Oh and though the distance was shorter, my abdomen area hurt-ed painfully. Must be because i took bus instead of mrt today. Bus 13 doesn't bring good luck to help me maintain stamina. Lesson learnt.
Crushcrushcrush - Paramore
Goodies - Ciara
Maths TA. To be honest, very very honest, disappointed. I know I know! My expectations are too high. Stupid me. But that's just me okay, how i feel. Didn't get what i expected, what i thought i would get. Garh. And if it happens that i made silly mistakes, i will have to whack myself more. Getting all worked up over a 15 marks test. Small minded. =X
Let's Start From Here - Joanna Wong
I didn't do any work at all today. Not a single bit. Guilty guilty. I did stare at maths but i had no inkling how to solve the question. I didn't try hard enough? Arrhh! Tomorrow's timetable seems really okay, like I don't have to feel pressed up over all the lessons. Can just take it slowly. Easy to guess what i'm doing now. Muttons =) They're going to couples all over singapore to sing serenades, giving them a special valentine's day, giving them presents, flowers. Sweet!
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Terrorism feeding terrorism O.O
Sri Lanka+Tamil Tigers: Evolution of the ethnic war
That's the case study for social studies.
I like case studies because there's a context placed to it which makes everything more interesting.
And it's an eye-opener.
In my 14 years of existence, i've never realised sri lanka was/is in civil war plus i've known nothing about sinhalese.
Narrow? my perspective of the world and beyond.
Finally liverpool won. It's taken them such and such and such a long time. They simply have must need to continue winning now. Plus man utd became the luckiest club alive yesterday. Equalising with the last kick of the game. But hey, i guess this is what it means when they say "This is the stuff champions are made of."
Two more days of school. Survived past one month, two days won't be that difficult. Wrong. It will be that tough. Everyday is a challenge. O.o Maybe it will rain for the entire day tomorrow. That could be good. Or bad. After that, it's cny. The second year of spending cny without my grandma. It's somewhat taken some of the spark out of cny since she passed away. For starters, no more reunion dinners at her house. The first day of cny won't be the same, though we'll still be going to her house with all the relatives there, it's as if the bubble of light that's always been there has gone missing. That's how i felt last year. No more image of her bustling around, taking care of all of us while we spend some of the first day of chinese new year together. I don't know why i'm thinking about this. Wonder how she's doing.
My cny won't be as festive and as great as other people's but it's just me who doesn't appreciate cny as much as i should be. I'm guilty of that.
I keep forgetting to say that the skin on my fingers are flaking away. dry. dried. dried up.
The squash camp during the march holidays is only for the team players. Meaning, i don't have to go. Or rather, i'm not included. I was. looking forward to it. And well, now we're not needed? That's a really crushing feeling. They'll be thinking we need a deserved break and maybe i should be satisfied? Or the team players are going through intensive work for nationals and we'll just be
in the way?
a hindrance?
But as usual, when i'm thinking like i'm thinking in the above paragraph, i feel like my thoughts are childish and self-centered. It always happens.
think. stop. scold myself because i shldn't be thinking this way. because i'm wrong. it's like i'm controlling what i shld be thinking. which is crazy.
am i trying to be perfect? =(
this post has just been me rambling along like a mad cow with no particular aim. shall return to watching the conflict in sri lanka. holidays please. more of them.
NO LYRICS
we've drifted
and i haven't made an effort
i'm a total bitch for neglecting us
for that i apologise
but what use will sorry be
it's my fault
i promise to try my best
to close the widening gap between us
it would be awful
if we were to be reduced to almost strangers
and i don't want that
i'm sorry
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)
- Jian Yang (1st Feb)
- Tabitha (3rd Feb)
- Darren (4th Feb)
- James (4th Feb)
- Klara (4th Feb)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)
The start of February means > many people's birthdays!
Muttons are back! Yay-ness. Stayed up until 2am this morning to finish listening to their show. =) BUT~ along with the entertainment, comes homework. Bleah Blurgh homework. There's a darn load of work and I was like struggling through piffty maths for dunno how long. I still can't get it. Urgh. Curse coordinate geometry. All the formulas and points and confusion which my incapable memory can't ever take in. Not only maths. Chemistry. I doubt I can do a single question of that piffty worksheet. On more cheem terms, differentiated assignment. Just so... stupid. Me.
And i woke up at 11am. I realised my sleeping patterns has changed drastically. DRASTIC. Later it affects my health and and. (all the bad disease thoughts) So i woke up and turned on the tv. Encore of the australian open women's final! Watched abit of it but hehs i already know sharapova pwnnzzz. =P Plus yeah wj her speech was great! Bordering on inspirational. Instead of the usual thank-you(s), she sent a great message to people around the world. Hehheh. I think much better than djokovic's speech. =X
Leona Lewis is numba ONE on 98.7 top 20! Triple-double yay-ness. Numba ONE! I simply lurv it. Her voice is just so sweet and when she sings, her vocals are brilliant. A few days ago, i was feeling bleahhhhh... and i went to listen to the songs on her album. It totally lifted my spirits. One word: Amazing.
Anyway, i was triggered to blog now because of katie who said he was going to post. He had a nice dream about how he brutally murdered someone. O.O It's freakishly disturbing. And ARGH as i'm typing, i keep thinking of my BLURDY homework. Gawd. Monday 8km run, 400m, 200m, 100m sprints. I'm gonna put in my best. As i came home yesterday, I realised maybe i should go down to the playground at midnight more and listen to music.
Yesterday was quite pissifying. Kinda angry at... niu and everything. He sorta made me think that despite the efforts we put into the powerpoint, it still looked as if we were slacking and didn't work hard at it. The thought of it was extremely frustrating, because, it wasn't true, but the feeling of it was still there. I wanna thank all gods existent and non-existent too that we didn't present yesterday. It would have been cruel and a joke. After sch, we were late for training. The bus took years to come. Then, found out that the six of us sec threes will be responsible for teaching the sec ones after cny the basics of squash. Train them in sch. Weds and fri. Apparently, it will test/improve our leadership skills. But somehow, i wasn't really happy. Probably coz i'm the most selfish, idiotic, horrible person on earth who wants to improve my own skills instead of spending time on the sec ones. When i think of this, i feel darned guilty. Or probably coz i'll be a failure at teaching them and end up ruining them and making a foolish joke out of myself.
Why must it always be about me?
Homework is still haunting me.
stifled
alone
empty
numb
restrained
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