Monday, December 31, 2007 @6:04 PM
Rocking out to 987 top 100 countdown! Woots the awesome countdown of all countdowns. =) At number 42 now. I think i know which song will be number 1 alr! Haha welcome to the black parade! See if my prediction's correct. Power 98 top 98 countdown's also going on... but i'm lazy to listen to both countdowns at the same time (though i assure you i can). So someone's updating me on the 98 countdown! Gosh this rocks. Haha. Who cares if i'm stuck at home with no invitations to countdown parties?I'm going to post the top 100 songs later!Found an absolutely lovely song courtesy of shumin's blog. =) One Step At A Time! Jordin Sparks. Darn nice song! I was putting it on replay at 11.45 last night while eating a banana and dribbling a ball (bdae present). Gahh sounds wrong. Then at midnight i decided to go downstairs to the playground. It wasn't as dark as i expected. And i live next to the expressway so there's alot of noise which can chase away potentially scary... stuff. I just sat at the rocking thingo that's way too small for me and plugged my ears with music. Ahh i saw ppl watching soccer in their house and i tried peeking in to watch also. But i guess my sneaking skills aren't too good coz they changed channel. Argh. Continued staring into the house at the tv hoping it would be switched back to soccer! but they closed the curtains on me! Maybe they thought i was some retarded fool hanging around at the playground at midnight. Then my dad was at the swimming pool talking to friends... so when he went back home i followed him.Today's the last day of 2007. 31 Dec. This year, i've gotten more emotional easily. Do i feel like i wasted this year away? Maybe. I don't recall doing anything significant. Though i remember making new friends and getting to re-know ppl and that's been brilliant. And EOYs sucked coz i did worse than expected. Academically, i dunno if i will regret not trying out for Lit RA? Good things of 2007 i guess are that i improved in squash. Quit third lang so that i could go down to the courts and work harder. And of course going for runs every saturday which i cldnt be bothered with last year.Tomorrow's 2008. Most important of all, i don't want to lose the ppl and friends i have now. I think the thing that i'm most afraid of now is that i'll feel alone. Alone, lonely, where i hv to fight very hard for myself by myself and be really tired. Academically, i wanna work hard. Work hard for my grades. And while doing that, strike a balance to make time for other stuff. That'll be darn difficult but i hv to... try. At home, i wanna try to avoid getting scolded everyday? They think i don't listen but when her words come flying with such venom, i'll not be human if sometimes i don't feel hurt. CCA, train harder of course. That goes without saying. And make it into the team next year. Hopefully, the good thing might happen to me? I won't say coz i'll sound. arrogant. Last of all, try to overcome the insecurity that i always feel. Insecure. Cut that out.Happy New Year. It's going to be a tough 2008.
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