just jump!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @9:37 PM

I thought this was appropriate. It's lasting because the quality of this will never diminish.

♥ you and i both loved

Thursday, January 7, 2010 @1:09 AM

I don't really know what I'm doing awake at... (let me check) ... 1.10am in the morning. 7 Jan 2010. That many more days to?

Now Playing: Secrets - One Republic

No prizes for guessing what I'm listening to now. Having the door closed is rather effective. Minimal light travels out of the room to wake anybody up! What should have happened more than an hour ago, is me reading on my bed and nodding off.

So, I'm at a dilenma. On one hand, the apple has treated me well and it's perfectly alright continuing to bite the apple. But what if this apple has already been totally bitten off that the only thing left is the yellow core? For other people, the apple represents a truckload of potential waiting for their teeth to sink into. I could venture into blueberry territory, but there are many different types of blueberries in the world. Which one is the healthiest?

Another day at home later, or is it? One thing's for sure, I'm going to wake up early and lay down certain plans. I could step out of the front door, whisk by around town, but where could I go?

Speaking about town, I took two extremely long bus rides on Tuesday. 70 from home to Paya Lebar, and 857 from Suntec City to home. I've taken them before once, a long time ago, but on Tuesday, those rides seemed to take much more time than I ever imagined. I realised how the surroundings could have changed drastically, or that roads stretch out further when you pay attention to them. It's like a movie, where you sit on the bus gazing out of the window, as people flow in and out. Not to mention. I was supposed to alight but didn't know because the bus was packed with students going home after school. Although I realised and hastily pressed the bell at the right stop, the bus driver promptly drove off. When there more people, it's really noisier! Even if the people aren't talking.

There's the People's Choice Awards later! Then the Grammys, the Oscars. Pretty exciting. Not to forget, American Idol. Ellen, she says she will be evil, can we agree with her! Plus the guest judges at the auditions, Avril Lavigne & Neil Patrick Harris etc. :) This is Jan, okay Oscars isn't in Jan, I think. You know why I'm not going on to after January, don't you?

Believe me when I say I can't wait to talk to you. Certain things are sweeter, better and more memorable when you look back on what you definitely don't want to miss out, or can't do without, in the future.

♥ you and i both loved

Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @8:25 PM

Who doesn't want to be Mike! Mike's wishes, Carlsberg. Tsk.

Kings and Queens by 30 seconds to mars sounds appetizingly good. Enticing, really. There's a chorus right at the end of the song! (irrelevant fact) I just realised the album Reality Killed The Video Star is not different from a small children's book. Haha. Except the pages are pictures of Robbie Williams and lyrics of his songs. And the album has a nice smell that I believe will never go away. No one knows I didn't fork out a single cent for the album!

Paramore. You know, Brand New Eyes is probably the only album where I like every single song in it. It's like soft rock to me. And I love the lyrics as well, incredibly witty. That's why I'm pumped that the band will be here in town! March 7. Okay I just checked, it's a perfect Sunday. But it depends on what March 8 in the calendar of my JC life has in store for me. And it's about 2 months after Green Day. Will I be able to spend the cash? I think, I know both will be unbelievable live.

The first weeks of December has "strengthened my resolve" to have a daughter in the (long) future. Hmm, oh well.

It's the end of a decade. So bloody fast! I vaguely recall a tiny wide-eyed version of me staring at the television screen, as celebrations to usher in the new millenium went on. I've been looking at the charts documenting the top songs of the decade. (Crazy In Love and Hey Ya appear everywhere!) Which got me thinking about my dedication to radio, or 987. The first time I truly listened to a song was in Sec 1, which occured simultaneously with the first time I tuned in to 987. I don't remember the details, but it just clicked. Clicks don't happen often. You try different things, but not many can sustain you. 987 made me silly, as some might know! At times, I've been really disappointed. It might not be a big deal, but 987 and music basically carried, accompanied me through secondary school.

I would be at Zouk Out, or Balaclava. Would I?

I turned 16 yesterday. What just happened? As Wen Zheng says, we're growing old! Less and less slack time, JC and beyond. Things will change drastically. I can't possibly imagine! Maybe someone will sport a moustache and own a motorcycle. Maybe I will see him/her nominated for Babe of the Year and go "omg!". Maybe I will hug you. All I can say is, watch out, 2010.

I'm watching Avatar tomorrow, and trust me, I'm looking forward to it.

♥ you and i both loved

Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @10:41 PM

This feels private. I love you, so love me back!

Haha today is the day. Today, December 15th! And I'm telling you I turn 16. It's like any other day except for some huge differences. Firstly, there's this special feeling in my heart which emerged when the clock struck 12 and remains till now. It's the giddiness of knowing that, however selfish it sounds, today is December 15th, and it's supposed to hold a certain significance. Every birthday wish has elevated that special feeling in varying degrees. I don't want today to end. I might not have a cake and candles or do anything out of the ordinary to celebrate, but I could sit down all day and still not want today to disappear into a fading memory. Thank you kt for splurging on me despite my insistence otherwise!

Me sincerely thanks everyone who put in the extra effort to type an sms, facebook post or tweet! (Especially sms and tweets) Or call, in the case of Charles. Haha. I will name everyone. You know why? Because I want to. =)

Twitter - The 3 musketeers! (Haha I wonder how they will react to that) finaljoyride, lystargirl and whereismyjelly. =D

Facebook - Chongmin, Jim, Lionel, Jack, Kwun Tong, Lo Yee, Michael, Kailun, Richard, Darren, Rayden, Ying Feng, Ervin, Jasdeep, Lock Leong, Yuet Cheong, Han Bin, Yu Da, Bob, Haozhi, Krystal, Ming Chan, Suwe, Ting Wei and Jun Wei. =D

Sms - Ysabel, Samantha, Kwun Tong, Kevin, Debra, Wei Xuan, Delwyn, Guan Lin, Darren, Tabitha and Wen Zheng. =D

Haha Daryl too. Dhivian for his advance birthday wish, Dad and Uncle Chris.

And of course, the lovely e-mail from Wan Jing who took time off her shopping adventure in Hong Kong to (possibly grab a computer)!

Caps is kinda the "in" thing right now.

At the same time, while I'm being stuck in my own world, I realise I don't have the ability to bring everyone else into my own world.

♥ you and i both loved

Sunday, December 13, 2009 @11:29 PM

I'm nice, I really am, that's what I tell myself. It's not wise to doubt, I say, which means that there are unwise people around here.

I'm tired and getting ready for bed, but there is this part of my mind which refuses to allow me to sleep yet. "After all it's still early, right?" That part of my mind starts to lie blatantly. So I drag my ipod or my hp + earphones to bed. The lies continue! "A couple of songs will do." No, it will not do! Because I wake up hours later (or even worse, the next morning), turn to my side, stare at my ipod/hp next to me, and wail in despair. Okay no wailing! But internal frustration and anxiety at heavy exposure to radiation and shortened life expectancy. Hmm, come night time, it becomes a cycle all over again.

At this juncture, I'm extremely delighted and relieved that autosave was invented!

♥ you and i both loved

@2:30 AM

You know, there are times when you just don't plan and everything that enters your mind simply comes rushing out. Maybe it's happening now. It's approaching 3 in the morning and I'm still up because of the match. Not to mention trying to make as little noise as possible, so certain people can continue sleeping and not wake up. It's going to be the same story tomorrow as well, but earlier. I can always hope for what I want, but things don't really turn out that way sometimes.

When I was young and went overseas for holidays, I wouldn't want to come back. Somewhere, in the back of my mind, I would be looking forward to an extended period of time in a foreign country with different people, strangers whom I don't know and will never know unless fate intervenes. You might think, "Hey, what if I moved here? Look at a whole new experience." I thought that the feeling would grow stronger while I grew older, but, it didn't. It's not easy, moving, starting anew, or struggling desperately to erase past memories. Maybe I'm rooted to home. Maybe I feel disconnected. The fact remains, on the other side of the coin, being able to escape for a week, I relish it.

Look at the mountain ranges and huge white patches of snow. They may be beautiful, actually, they are beautiful. When you travel across a place where at intervals, everything blends perfectly together, it's a stunning sight. Living there is another story, it's terribly difficult. Nothing is predictable, not even the cold. You wonder how they survive, but people thrive under the most extreme circumstances.

Spending consecutive days with people, exchanging (or sneaking) looks constantly. Though how many times do they think of you? After 8 the cute factor and ability to attract attention drops.

The attack breaks down when the ball doesn't zip fast enough.

I have a question. Is it possible that decent guys smoke?

♥ you and i both loved

Monday, July 27, 2009 @8:39 PM

Damn blogger

It's only because of my overwhelming feelings pushing me to type this post, nevertheless blogger should do well to watch out.

I know I can't afford to mismanage my time.
I know I have to study plants.
Somehow, I also know what the term "despicable" means.

Waiting until someone is on leave before informing her to literally pack her bags is indeed downright decent.
How many people go to work looking forward to the simple pleasure of the job they enjoy, yet not knowing it's their last day?
I certainly worry for your sense of hearing.
Please allow your ears to spend more time under the running water tap.
At least put some effort into inventing plausible reasons that can cover your blatant deceits and desperate excuses.
She connects with many people on different levels
Simply take a look at her legion of supporters
Threatened by her growing popularity?

I thought every single person was part of the family
Does the family not feel the loss?
Are they restricted from expressing how they feel
Or totally ignorant because it's not them?

Because I certainly feel the loss, the sense of emptiness. When something as significant as this gradually becomes a fixture in my life, I can't imagine it being taken away. Reality is not harsh, just unreasonable.

Something is missing, and will be missing forever. Not only have you lost her, you have lost a certain trust of many people. Yes, you have ironically allowed us to slip away when you wanted us nearer, don't you understand?

It will never be the same again. I always looked forward to the start of a new day because it felt like an out of the world experience, just you keeping me company. The phrase "forgetting all my troubles" fit perfectly during those three hours. Time would arrive at a standstill, only then could I truly feel at ease. Saying "you will be missed" is an understatement. Behind your bubbly voice lies your cheerful disposition, your strong personality clear as day. That one call embarrassed the shit out of me, but I will more likely bring the memory to my grave than not remember it. Thank you and good luck, sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

♥ you and i both loved